Alex Nason, April 6th MADNESS

i am really confused in my head about the next project, so im working on it. but as it happens as a child i was really freakishly OCD about weird freakish things about which i will not go into detail right now, because i might need it for inspiration later. anyways, i was obsessing about this project and worrying about it because i needed inspiration and realized that the only thing i reallllly do ritualistically is a. obsess about decisions/whatever b. think i am dying of some bizarre disease that i pretty much am certain i dont have (hypochondria, i think). so while i was worrying i REALIZED i was just worrying again and got semi inspired because OCD tendencies kind of define my persona. so i think i will take that further, but right now im still in the process of being OCD anyways...so yea. medication helps.

I posted some photos that interested me, though i dont know where they will take me, if anywhere. there is this CUTE little pasticeria on the way to the specola. it looks like it comes right out of a little story book, i am pretty much obsessed with it. it is just so quaint and clean and perfect. so, maybe ill make a candy shop and let you guys eat everything. or MAYBE i will just eat everything from the candy shop and give birth to a giant candy baby. im not sure.

but the idea of body/birth has interested me too, such as pictures from the specola. for regan i am working from the anatomy figures, and i really am taken by all of the waxy figures and whatever. the bones and flesh and anatomy studies in general are a total blast to draw, even though every time i actually go to the specola the same lady asks to see my student I.D. she knows i am a student, but it is okay. It could just be her way of reaching out.....

obviously i am in a bitter mood, which is only helped by the horrifying taste of death i get when i bite my fingernails because i put this bitter clear stuff on them so i stop biting them but...to no avail. i just ingest a lot of bitter clear stuff. hope all your inspiration is going better than mineeee.
whoop whoop.